Hahaha! kamusta naman. Orayt, as the title goes.. Putobumbong. Last wednesday, galing akong school, on my way home, nakakita ako ng nagtitinda ng putobumbong sa simbahan. Haha. Biglang nag twinkle twinkle yung mga mata ko eh.. Super nag-crave ako bigla sa putobumbong. Ayun... I bought without asking kung magkano. Binigyan ko yung seller ng 20peso bill. Wala kasi akong barya. I expected na same price pa rin, which is 10pesos. Then sinuklian ako nung seller ng 5peso. Napa "WTF" ako sa isip ko eh. @_@ Pano ba naman, 7.50php ang tricycle pauwi samin simula sa simbahan. Eh yung 20 na lang ang pera ko. Kulang na ko ng 2.50php pauwi. @_@ Tumunganga muna ko sa kanto, ayaw ko naman kasi ibalik yung putobumbong T_T sobrang gusto ko siya kainin. Kaso, hindi naman ako makauwi. Kaya ayun.. after ilang mins ng pag-iisip. I called our maid sa bahay. Sabi ko kinulang pera ko pauwi, paki-antay ako sa kanto samin para sila magbayad ng tricycle ko. Hahaha. Sakto lang din yung load ko sa pagtawag sa landline. Ang nangyari? Pag-uwi ko, sarap na sarap akong kumakain ng putobumbong. Hahahaha =))

Amf, napaka walang kwenta ng post ko. Haha =))

HHHEEEELLLL WWWEEEKKKK!!

Waa.. This week is our Preliminary Exams Week. Yesterday was my Philosophy, Organic Chemisty Lec and Lab Exam.. Kanina, Physiology-Anatomy Lec and Lab.. =)

Ayun.. nanghula ako sa chem at nag mini-mini sa phy-ana. hahahah. Amfness naman kasi, ke-hirap. Pero madali sana kung nag-aral ako. LOL. kasi kasi.. katamaran ko.. O_o Isang himala kapag ako ay pumasa dun.

Anyway, super daming pangyayari this week.. At siyempre, lahat yun ay nangyayari dahil may dahilan.. ^_^

Kapag bumagsak ako sa phy-ana at chem, yun cgro ay para matuto akong magsipag at mag-aral. haha. Ok ako ngayon.. cgro dahil hindi ako masyadong possessive this days.. natututo na ko mag-control ng mood at temper ko. *yeshhh* At yun kay bebi milky naman, nako.. hayaan mo na sa sugapa yun. ^_^ may mas magandang kapalit yan... promise. Tsaka, kahit naman nawala yun, andito naman ako. Tayo na lang maglaro. haha lol. Hindi mo kawalan yun... okei? at para naman sa *^%@$@%$%! na yun.. e2 sayu.. mabulunan ka sana! hmp!



hahaha. Geh na, napadaan lang ako. =))

Hahahaha. Natatawa na lang ako, ewan ko lang kung mababalik pa. haha. Nako, bahala ka sa buhay mo. na lang ako.

Anyway, Quizzes day kami bukas. Haha. Phy-Ana Lec and Lab at English Quiz. At dahil na naman sa katamaran ko, eh hindi pa ko nag-aaral at 10:40 na sa time ko. Ayus ano? ikauunlad ko toh.. hahaha. Cge, napadaan lang ako sa aking blog. Masyado kasi akong natatawa.

Yet, I pray that I would wake up. Wake up to believe that it was all a bad dream, a melancholic nihilism of the subconscious. But the mind battles with these emotions.

A battle so tiring that the heart eventually loses all the strength and finally decides to embrace defeat.






Ayoko ng mag-elaborate. Pagod na ko...

To what extent do you allow someone to hurt and lie to you and still give them a second chance? third chance? fourth chance? fifth chance?

Sure it hurts. But is "loving" them enough to give them those chance. Knowing what they did, would you keep holding that against that person when you do get back together? Is it possible to trust them again? When does one know if they deserve another chance even if you've given them that so many times before and they just kept on breaking those promises?

One wouldn't know the answer if one doesn't try it out. But is it worth investing all those emotions all over again knowing you might end up fooled again?

That's the thing about life, there are no definite answers, if you really want to know then you have to find out yourself. Get screwed over again and again and hopefully learn from it.. if not, your a dumb #$%^&*@#$!! LOL.

Anyway, I was browsing my folder of photos then I saw the picture above. It was a print screen when I was chatting and the drawing was made by Yahoo Doodle. Why does everything has to change? Does making changes has anything to do with chances? lol. Why do people LIE?! I really really miss the old times. I'm fed up.

Chances it is.

Weee! I just wanna share to you guys that I've received a "pasalubong" from our dad. He gave me and my brother an original game installer.. and mine is the Sim City 4 Deluxe Edition ( Includes SimCity 4 Rush Hour ). I've checked first the memory of our PC to make sure that there is enough space for the game. I've dreamed so long for an original CD of any Sims Games. And now, at last! I've got one! Haha. New addiction coming up! =) I've installed and tried it last night and I was like whoah! It was confusing at first, I've got to control my own city. Assign designated police and fire stations, medical centers, school, houses, control the monthly expenses and monthly income of the city together with the citizens taxes and even control the weather! haha. How i hope Philippines was as easy to control as the SimCity.. I'm sure I'd be playing this the whole weekend. =) haha. xoxo <3

When it rains, it pours...

... need i say more. I just want to know when will it stop pouring. I'm not strong enough. I'm not getting any better. It is just so hard and I am losing myself. It is so much easier before. Back when i can go a day without worrying. Back when i excel at anything i want. Back when things go my way.

I'm going crazy. There are so many things piled up and I haven't done any. Preliminary exams are up next next week yet I feel like I've learned nothing. We lost on our financial support case with my dad. My mom even told me what my dad said.. "Matigas daw kasi ulo ni shobe kaya si darryl lang ang may bank account". LOL. I know I'm not as good as an angel, but. Does he even know what he's doing? Is he a good example of a great dad? The answer would be a BIG NO. I'd even rather be a daughter of other fathers out there than have him as my father. He's a shame. If he was just good enough, we could've not experience this kind of life. Imagine, my mom has to wake up at 3:00 in the morning to prepare the foods for her food shop at Letran? while my dad's mistress is happily lying on their own house now at Gen. Santos, South Cotabato. Grr.. It totally ruined my half-ruined day. Another are formal report deadlines, sleepless nights because of Phy-Ana and wasted times.


I've been at my worst self lately because I can't be superwoman. And because of that, i am being punished more with what's happening around me. Maybe I am really being so possessive. I'll adjust and give him space, it would be better that way, maybe. I'd rather hold on and stay than let go and hurt myself more.

and when it rains, it pours... but it will stop... i know it will... i just hope it will come sooner because i don't know how much longer i can hold on to life. Aja hazel, Aja! I'll be fine.. I swear :x

It's already 12:30am on my clock and still, I can't sleep. I'm nervous for our 80item quiz later in Phy-Ana about the Nervous System @_@ lol. I kept on reading my book yet there's nothing that is sticking on my mind. Anyway, thanks to a close friend for always being there whenever I need someone to talk to.. :) you know who you are. ^_^ and, I'm not emo. >:p

[ Napadaan lang ako. Haha, balik review na.. =p ]

I feel like I'm trying too hard, but hard is not hard enough, only because I don't know how hard enough works. I don't know what to do when I'm alone. I thought that all I've been doing was to make that feeling go away, but in the end, I see that it's even more radiant in this light. And lately, I've also been thinking about myself for the last few weeks.

There are FIVE(5) things I've realized this day.

1. I don't have a subject in which I am confident of getting a high grade in.
> Thinking about my major subjects especially Organic Chemistry and Physiology-Anatomy kills me.

2. Still, I haven't done the things I have set with myself, for myself.
> All I have are plans plans plans! JUST PLANS. @_@

3. I'm looking forward to October, when it will be our semestral break and my eighteenth birthday, which I profoundly hope will be a really good one but I don't know how that will happen when all I have are plans and not doing anything about it.
> I've been excited about my 18th birthday and I got so many plans, but still, as of now, my invitation list, my 18 blah blah and my dance number are still not prepared. I only got less than 2 months left. -_-

4. I'm getting fat and uglier. And i hate it. I have to do some or should I correct it as MORE exercises and diet.
> I've attended my blockmate's debut and I wore a silver dress. I really felt that I am getting fat. My close guy friends kept on teasing me. "Macho Girl" Damn.

5. I should be in geekery.
> Lately I've been sleeping so late like around 2am-3am in the morning eventhough I have classes at 7am. I've been late on my morning classes though they are my minor classes, STILL, I am late. Everytime we'll have long exams and quizzes, I do open my books and browse but I still didn't understand anything. I wasn't like this before, but now I'm so lazy, and I'm asking you, please kill me for this. :s

un�ap�pre�ci�at�ed (n-prsh-td)

ADJECTIVE:
having value that is not acknowledged

And lately I've been feeling sooooooooooooooooo UNAPPRECIATED.




-yun lang. ayoko ng i-elaborate pa. -_- basta, in time.. you'll see what I've got.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience.
You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along.
But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.



You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

Weee! So True! haha. =p Got this from blogthings.com ^__^