GiveMeTheStars: 2012

Few hours to go and it's going to be a new year for all of us. It means a beginning. A fresh start for all of us to prove something, to achieve bigger things. It is like another 365 days to spend. 365 days full of surprises.

Alright, enough with counting. Before the year ends, I just want to write a special year-end entry to reminisce everything that I have been through in the blogosphere for the entire year of 2012. There are ups and downs but I am still here and I am going nowhere, as a matter of fact. First half of my 2012 was full of happiness & surprises. I had some problems with my "love life" but it was nothing compared to the happiness I felt when I graduated college, had a graduation party, went to Puerto Galera and my review for board exam. Though, the second half of my 2012 was full of sadness and unexpected events. I failed my board exam and my beloved mother died.

But I know, God loves me. He has a purpose, He has a plan. He always has a plan. :) Even though I failed the local board exam, I was still able to find a job that is connected to my course. A job where I met kind, loving and nice people. From our boss down to our helper, EVERYBODY is good. I mean, yeah, we all have our negative traits, but, these people.. they're like angels God sent me. I have a mother in the image of Ma'am Flor, an older sister with Ma'am Joy, a Tito with Sir Dino and Sir Dante and a bestfriend with Ma'am Cake. I don't earn that big money but I don't feel it because of these people.

My mom died, yes. It was VERY tragic. I still can't let go. I can't move on. And I think, I can't let go of what happened FOREVER. Even if we'd be able to get justice, I don't think that's enough. Those people who did it to her, they're like the twin of satan. I dreamt of my mom twice and I know she'll help us find justice for her. I miss her. We miss her and we'll ALWAYS LOVE HER.

So for my 2013, I hope I'll be able to achieve what I need and want to achieve. Whether it be the PRC license or the ASCPi & AIMS certification. I have to get those 3, or even just the international certs. :)

Anyway, I finally got my Belle De Jour Planner!

I've had the same planner last 2010 and 2011 and I really enjoyed using it. The past planners I've had, I wasn't able to write something on the Dream Board, but this 2013, I swear. I'd write and put some pics as my motivation. :) I love BDJ since it has everything that I need. From Gifts list, Wardrobe checklist, Bills and Expenses Tracker, Menstrual Tracker and more. I might post a review about BDJ maybe around the 3rd week of January. :)

I gtg, need to prep for media noche foods. :)
HAPPY NEW YEAR!

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Finally! I've got some time to update my blog. I really missed blogging. There were days when I really want to write a post but I don't have the time. I've been really busy with my clay orders. Well, it's christmas, most of my clients were ordering personalized name tags, cp chains, earrings etc. I'm not complaining, I'm happy with their orders, I enjoy making clay accessories at the same time, I earn extra money. So yeah, win-win. :)

Ok, hmm.. Well, It's 1 day before Christmas. To be honest, I am not that excited. I do really miss my mom. Big time. From the past years, It has been my habit to ask her few days before Christmas on what she's going to cook for noche buena and new year's eve. Now, who will I ask? My self? My sister? Lol. Since the time my mom's gone, we've been very hands-on with everything we do, with everything that's connected to us. I know I'm one strong kid. But, I'm just 22! I need my mom. Whenever I encounter any problem before, I used to think like "Ok lang yan, magagawan ni mama ng paraan yan." How about now? *sighs* Life... oh life...

Well another update, we've had our Christmas Party at work last thursday. We decorated the clinic with balloons and banners. Dra. Abby bought Pansit, Liempo, Embutido, Kaldereta and cupcakes from Blushing Cupcakes while Dra. Rañola brought a Cake. We've played Pinoy Henyo, Calamansi Relay & Word Hunt. Ofcourse, I was in the winning team. Haha! I had so much fun. We also rented a videoke unit which was delivered at 7am in the clinic but the party starts at 6pm and since we don't have patients in the morning, we started singing around 10am til the end of the party. Haha. I won some stuff from the raffle, I don't what it is yet 'cause I plan on opening all my gifts by 12mn of Dec. 24, We also had exchange gifts, I got Sir Dante, he wished for a computer speakers, luckily, CD-R-King got this super cute speakers that looks like stuffed toys. I bought a Stitch head speakers for Sir Dante while Ma'am Flor was the one who got me for the exchange gifts, ofcourse, I wished for any hello kitty usable item or any pink stuffs as long as I can use it. Lol. Then friday, I'm supposed to go to the UST Paskuhan event with my friends, but they've canceled so instead, I went to Trinoma to shop for christmas gifts for my family & friends. After shopping, I went to bebi's house. We ordered Mcdo's Happy Bundle for dinner. It was a catch! For only 495PHP, you get 4 Big Macs, 4 Regular Softdrinks and 4 Medium Fries. Additional of 40php for delivery charge. We also bought a small bottle of Emperador Lights and had a one on one drink just like what we do before when our friends are not available.

Lately, my sister and I are having some problems with our younger brother, though I don't want to elaborate it here, I just hope that despite these problems, we will still stick to each other cause we're siblings. :) I still know that God has a plan.. a perfect plan. :)

I gotta go now, still have some pending orders and I have to wrap my gifts. Merry Christmas friends! ^_^

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I used to love the month of October. Of course, It's my birth month. It's Mama Mary's Birth month, it's my mom's birth month, it's bebi's birth month, and this is when semestral break starts... October was my lucky month until this 2012.. Last October 5, I went with the Sunico's to McKenzie's Birthday at Shakey's Marcos Highway. After work, I went straight to their house.

While we're on the way home around 9:30 - 10:00pm my mom called me. I cancelled the call 'cause I thought she'll ask where I am and what time am I going home. Instead, I texted her and said "Ma, pauwi na po ako, galing kami bday ni mac ng pamangkin nia. Lapit na me. hihi." Right after sending the text, my sister called me and said "Shobe, nasan ka na?" I answered "Pauwi na ko. Pasabi na lang kay mama" Then she said right away "Shobe, nabaril si mama. Papunta kami ni dustinn sa Pascual, may sugat siya. Tawagan mo si dar, kasama niya si mama" Right after hearing that, I began to cry. I called my brother and ask him where they are. "Nasa ospital kami. Shob nabaril si mama. Valenzuela Medical Center. Nasa ER." He was panicking. He's nervous, he's crying. Bebi and I rode a cab from Frisco to Valenzuela. I kept on calling my brother while we're on the road. I asked how's mama.. "Dar, ano na si mama? Nasa OR na ba? Anu ginagawa nila?" Then he said "Wala, andito sa ER.. Nirerevive nila si mama. Shob, 0-0 na.. shob pumunta ka na dito, mag-isa lang ako. Andaming dugo shob." Again, I cried hearing "0-0" I even got to ask "Bakit hindi nila dinala sa OR?? Bakit hindi nila inaalis yung bala?? Ano ba? Daplis ba? San ba tumama? Nabangga ba kayo? Bakit nabaril si mamaa!" My brother just answered "Hindi ko alam. Lumusot yung bala! Andaming dugo shob pumunta ka na please" Then after a few minutes, I came at the hospital exactly the same time my sister came with my other brother who's head has a big wound. I tried not to cry. I assisted my younger brother with the nurses for his wound. I tried to catch a glimpse of my mom while the doctors are trying to save her. I saw the "through and through" shot on her side.. then, the doctor talked to me and said "Ma'am, wala na pong pulse si mommy pagdating niya dito.. sinubukan na po namin ng ilan beses na i-save siya.." He's saying these while showing me the graphs with flat lines.. I cried. My brother, my sister, my tita.. we all cried. Cried so hard while hugging each other. I went to my mom. Then I saw them covering her with the white sheets.. I wanted to hug her.. hug her so tight thinking that my hug might wake her up. I was not afraid of blood. I've been studying and working with blood since my college years started. But that time, that moment when I saw my mom covered with blood. I felt chills. I felt something very heavy inside. I don't know how to explain that feeling. When my brother told us the whole story on how it happened, I felt pain. I felt anger. I felt so many things that all I could do was cry. Then I saw my younger brother seating near us, not knowing anything. I wiped my tears, went to him and asked him if he's ok and what he wants.. The doctor cleaned and stitched his wound and ordered a CT Scan. Thank God he's fine.

After a few moments, a man from the funeral asked us to confirm the body before they bring it to the funeral.. I saw my mom, covered with white sheets with stains of blood. I can't imagine that I would be on that moment, that I will see my mom being carried, lifeless. Then after maybe 10-15mins, the media came, the police came, the SOCO came, everything was a blur. They even asked me to take a pic of my mom inside the funeral car. They opened the big black bag with my mom inside. I was crying very hard while taking the picture. Why me, of all the people. Ako pa talaga pinakuha niyo ng picture?? Picture ng nanay kong nakahiga na wala ng buhay? Tangina. I was feeling really shitty, mad and hurt. They needed a family relative to accompany my mom on her way to the funeral. Bebi and I went with them. My sister can't because she's pregnant, my brother is needed by the media and police for interviews and statements. We waited at the funeral until 7am for the autopsy to finish. The pathologist told me that there were 4 gunshots. DAMN. 4gunshots all straight to my mom. One on her arm, 2 on the side of her breast that went through the other side and one on her shoulder. Again, Tangina. That someone who did that to my mom has no heart, no soul and is just like Satan. We have our suspect but I can't write it here. Forms were given and I started to fill it up. Death, Died, Deceased. Those were the words that I've been reading on the forms. Again, another Tangina. The day went on and we needed to prepare so many things. I couldn't sleep. Even if I try to close my eyes, despite of all the things we did, we prepared, I couldn't sleep. October 8 was her birthday. We were supposed to have a small celebration at home like the old times. Achie and I planned to have kiddie games for the adults with balloons. *Hayyy...* I don't want to elaborate this part of my post, I don't need a blog post to remember the whole thing that happened. It will forever be on my mind. My mom was buried last October 13, 2012 11:00am at the Eternal Gardens Memorial Park together with my grandmother. I hope you rest in peace mom. We'll fight for you.

Last October 16 was my birthday. Mom's supposed to cook Carbonara for my workmates and buttered shrimp for us at home. Instead, my aunts, sister and cousins bought Palabok, Pancit and Lechon Manok for our dinner. Hayy. I really miss my mom. She's all we had. She did EVERYTHING for us. She didn't deserve to die that way. I know, God has a purpose. God has a reason. It's not everyday that we'll be hurt. God just let us experience this pain, for us to appreciate the biggest gift and reward He'll give us when the right time comes. At least my mom's resting now. She doesn't have to wake up very early in the morning to prepare foods to sell at the canteen, she doesn't have to drive my brothers to school and rush to the office for work. She doesn't have to sleep and go home late because of her loaded office works.

Oh well, Life must go on. I know my mom wouldn't want us to just sit here and cry. She'll want us to fight, go on with our lives and be successful. Don't worry ma, We'll be. They'll kneel in front of us in time asking for forgiveness. Rest in Peace Ma, We love you so so so much.

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A repost from a circulating "note/post" from facebook.This might be long, but take time to read, it's worth it. Who ever wrote this one, 2 thumbs up for you man. :) I hope all guys would think just like you.

Ang mga babae, madaldal/mabunganga. Oo, wala talagang tigil ang bibig nila sa pag-rachada sa kakasalita. Lalo na sa tuwing pinapaalala nila sayo na oras na para inumin ang iyong gamot, kapag nagtatanung sila kung kumain ka na ba, kapag ginising ka nila sa umaga upang hindi ma-late at sa mga pagkakataon na nag-aalala sila sayo at tinatanung kung

nasaan ka na at bakit hindi ka pa umuuwi. Walang duda, madaldal nga. Hayaan mo na, balang araw, siguro magbabago din sila. Tipong maririnig mo lang ee "Oo", "Hinde" at "Pwede". Para kayong naglalaro ng Pinoy Henyo. Romantic siguro ng buhay nyo nun. "Ang mga babae, mashadong sentimental." Sinabi mo pa. Tandang tanda nga nila ang petsa at lugar kung saan kayo unang nag-date, isinulat niya din sa kanyang diary kung ano ang mga ginawa ninyo, nakatago at ingat na ingat siya sa mga larawan nyong dalawa, daig pa niya ang Smithsonian sa pag-aalaga ng mga iniregalo mo at kahit kailan hindi niya nalilimutan ang mga importanteng okasyon tulad ng anniversary, monthsary, weeksary o birthday mo. Nakaka-inis ba? Ok lang yan, malay mo next time, hindi na siya ganun. Tipong i-aasa na lang niya sa Facebook ang iyong kaarawan. Tapos tamang post na lang sa wall mo ng "hapi bday". "Ang mga babae, emosyonal." They cry about movies. They get teary with a romantic novel. They blush and gasp upon seeing a picture of a cute dog or a cuddly baby. Bakit ba ganun sila? Buti na lang tayo hindi. Kinikimkim lang naten lahat ng emosyon sa loob hanggang sa sumabog at atakihin sa puso o di naman kaya ee magpapakalasingtapos magwawala at maghahamon ng wrestling. Di ba mas logical un? Madalas pa mag-imagine na ikakasal kayo sa simbahan. Lagi nag a-iloveyou, imissyou, take care at mwah mwah sa text. Asar ka na ba at nacocornyhan? Ayos lang yan. Darating din siguro ang time na titigil siya at isesend ang mga un sa iba.

Women are probably the greatest gift to men, from God, beside beer and sizzling sisig. At para sken, women deserve all advantages, lalo na sa pag-ibig. Sana lahat ng babae ay maging masaya ang lovelife. Sana, walang babaeng heart-broken, kasi, tayong mga lalake, we're meant to pursue them and it's okay if we fail from time to time. It's the way nature intended it. Gaya ng isang leon sa usa o pag-ikot ng earth sa paligid ng araw. Mas okay kung tayo na lang ung masasaktan. Ee sila? Isipin mo, nagkakaroon sila ng "dalaw" at nababaliw kada buwan, nabubuntis at nahihirapan ng 9 months, at pinaka matindi sa lahat, kailangan pa nilang panatilihing makinis at walang buhok ang kanilang mga kili-kili. Ano ba namang pasayahin sila at gawing "scar-free" ang kanilang buhay pag-ibig.

And if you are with a great gal, do everything to make her happy. Don't ever break her heart. Wag kang magpa-uto sa mga statistics, na nagsasabing, mas marami ang babae sa lalake, kaya okay lang mang-chiks. Ano pa bang gusto mo? Hindi pa ba sapat na minahal ka niya sa kabila ng iyong pagiging engot at kawalan ng Romantic DNA sa katawan? Malaki man ang papolasyon nila sa mundo, napaka-liit ng tsansang makakilala ka ulet ng katulad niya na magtya-tyaga sayo. Tandaan, pansamantala ka mang maakit ng naglalakihang pulang high-heels o maaarteng makintab na sandals, mas masarap pa ring umuwe sa nag-iisang tsinelas ng buhay mo.

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